Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Jobless
No bueno! I am still jobless! I really need to get my butt in gear and get a job! Its been kind of nice laying around the house and doing stuff with my girls everyday! When I work its hard for us to do anything at all cause I'm always working or our hours conflict! Last week I stayed with my bff for 4 days and I thought I lived with her for a second there lol. We were at my moms and I told her something about I was visiting her. Tannie looked at me all crazy and was like you live here haha! It was funny! So now she has to remind me where I live! I've never not had a job for this long! Maybe that's why I've been feeling lazy, cause I'm not working. Pray that I get a job really really soon!!
Friday, May 8, 2009
I officially hate moving!!
I officially hate moving!! Why can't everything just magically appear where you want it to go?? Moving stinks!!
Hello again world!!
yi yi yi!! I am so exhausted!! I have been trying to cram all of my stuff into my car and its not working very well!! I'm going to have to throw a lot of my stuff in the dumpster! (tear) I have come to the conclusion that maybe, just maybe, I have way too many clothes!! It is scorching outside!! Everytime I get some more energy and walk outside, the sun soaks it all up! My sister says its just because I'm a bum! Maybe thats true! As soon as I FINALLY finish packing and throwing everything else away it will take me at least 21 hours to drive home! My dad, my mom, or my brother was supposed to fly out here and help me move and pack, but the plane tickets were too expensive, so now they aren't!! (tear) Maybe its a good thing cause I prob would've sat in the house while they packed the car!! LOL! Don't worry...when I get home...they are so unpacking my car!! I guess since it will prob be mothers day when I get there, my mom will have to do it!! Lol j/k! I'm not that cruel!! I am really excited about going back home...well kinda. I want to be around my family and my best of friends, but I will miss living in my own apartment! I'm going to check the rock church out when I get back to Cali! My friend Sandy is going to go with me since she lives in Sacramento, I hope that it impacts her in a good way! She didn't care for Promise Land when she went there with me! She had a bad experience! So pray this will be a good experience for her! It would be awesome for us to go to church together somewhere!
If I would've got my lazy bum in gear I could be laying at the beautiful California beach with Tannie right now!! How depressing! Instead I'm here in good 'ol west texas!
I seriously need a nice strong man to do all of my moving duties...lol.
I guess I should stop being lazy and go outside and at least pretend to move stuff around...haha
I really think that I could sleep for weeks when this is all over!!
If I would've got my lazy bum in gear I could be laying at the beautiful California beach with Tannie right now!! How depressing! Instead I'm here in good 'ol west texas!
I seriously need a nice strong man to do all of my moving duties...lol.
I guess I should stop being lazy and go outside and at least pretend to move stuff around...haha
I really think that I could sleep for weeks when this is all over!!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
What a great great day with Yvette
Oh my goodnes!! I was laughing so hard! I just love my home girl Yvette's daughter!! She is so freaking adorable!! Dayleen was over at my house chilling with me and Yvette and she was all following Cornflake around calling her Popcorn!! It was soooo cute! She is adorable! She would laugh super hard everytime that Cornflake licked her!! Everytime I try to speak spanish to her, she looks at me like I done lost my mind...lol
Yvette is my blonde mexican home girl!! She is such a dummy, but that is why I love her!! So she was telling me a story about when she was pregnant and I'm going to share with you her smarts...lol
So there was a guy that she thought was really hot before she got pregnant, but she never talked to him, he just gave her the "eye". So she thought he was into her or whatever. When she got pregnant she didn't see him because she stayed home a lot. Well she saw him at a resturant when she was VERY pregnant and he was outside and he could only see her face. When he came into the resturant and saw her stomach he kind of looked at weird! She was trying to get her grub on and she was eating a burrito. The guy looked and her and said what are you having??
What do you think my amazing friend said????
She said she was having a combonation with some bacon........
He said I meant the baby.....
What a genius!! I couldn't stop laughing!! She told me the story because we went to Bush's chicken to go and get a drink and this really hot guy came to our car to get our order. She was kind of flirting with him and he said that our total was only $1. Yvette was freaking out and said that home boy was hooking us up. She was going on and said it was because she talked to him in spanish...lol. We were making fools of ourselves because we thought he gave us a discount. When we pulled out of the drive thru there was a big sign that said happy hour....drinks $0.47...haha we are so dumb!
Yvette is my blonde mexican home girl!! She is such a dummy, but that is why I love her!! So she was telling me a story about when she was pregnant and I'm going to share with you her smarts...lol
So there was a guy that she thought was really hot before she got pregnant, but she never talked to him, he just gave her the "eye". So she thought he was into her or whatever. When she got pregnant she didn't see him because she stayed home a lot. Well she saw him at a resturant when she was VERY pregnant and he was outside and he could only see her face. When he came into the resturant and saw her stomach he kind of looked at weird! She was trying to get her grub on and she was eating a burrito. The guy looked and her and said what are you having??
What do you think my amazing friend said????
She said she was having a combonation with some bacon........
He said I meant the baby.....
What a genius!! I couldn't stop laughing!! She told me the story because we went to Bush's chicken to go and get a drink and this really hot guy came to our car to get our order. She was kind of flirting with him and he said that our total was only $1. Yvette was freaking out and said that home boy was hooking us up. She was going on and said it was because she talked to him in spanish...lol. We were making fools of ourselves because we thought he gave us a discount. When we pulled out of the drive thru there was a big sign that said happy hour....drinks $0.47...haha we are so dumb!
Oh My
Oh my!! It has been a rough couple of days!! I have been crying my little eyes out! I am so thankful for such great friends at times like these. I don't know what I would do without them! They are the greatest!! They can make me laugh when all I want to do is cry! I hope I get over my little delima very soon!!
♥Me
♥Me
Sunday, May 3, 2009
What a day!!
What a tiring day! I didn't do a thing! I sat around and ate all day!! I know....I was super lazy! I'm still tired from driving 1600 miles....twice....to California and back! Whew! What a journey! I have to go to work in the morning! Joy of all joys! I think that I forgot how to do my job...haha! Until next time!!
♥Me
♥Me
Letting Go
So, I don't know why I have the hardest time letting go of certain people that are in my life! They treat me like trash, but if they act just a little bit nicer its like I forget about everything and act like nothing ever happened. Even though they just go right back to treating me like trash the next day! Bre says that I just need to get "black" on some people. I tried being mean, but when I am, I always feel bad. Ugh!! It is sooo frustrating at times!! Everytime that I think that I am done with him, he magically just prances right back into my life! Its like a death trap!! Help!!
♥Me
♥Me
If a man wants you
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man, before you find what makes you happy.
If a relationship ends because the man wasn't treating you as you deserve, then heck no, you cannot "be friends."
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he's stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better."
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, so why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bother you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything, He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior.
Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are even if he's making more , has an higher education, or has a better job.
Don't make him into a quasi-god.
He's a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he's cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending comprise is a two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships there is nothing cute about baggage. Deal with you issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you.. A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals look for someone complimentary not supplementary.
Dating is fun even if he doesn't turn out o be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes when a man always knows where you are and our always readily available to him. He takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies
You'll make them smile, another rethink her choices, and another women prepare.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man, before you find what makes you happy.
If a relationship ends because the man wasn't treating you as you deserve, then heck no, you cannot "be friends."
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he's stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better."
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, so why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bother you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything, He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior.
Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are even if he's making more , has an higher education, or has a better job.
Don't make him into a quasi-god.
He's a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he's cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending comprise is a two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships there is nothing cute about baggage. Deal with you issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you.. A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals look for someone complimentary not supplementary.
Dating is fun even if he doesn't turn out o be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes when a man always knows where you are and our always readily available to him. He takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies
You'll make them smile, another rethink her choices, and another women prepare.
♥One day my Prince will come
--One day your prince will come, mine just took a wrong turn, got lost, and is to stubborn to ask for directions.
--Smile always ... and live the smile!
--The best thing you can give someone is a chance.
--Don't push anyone to hard, if it's meant to be, it will happen.
--They say true love hides behind every corner ... I must be walking in circles!
--Tonight I'll ask the stars above, "How will I win your love? What do I do? What do I say to turn your eyes my way?"
--For all of you who talk about me ... thanks for making me the center of your world!
--Never start frowning because you never know who's falling in love with your smile.
--When a girl loves a guy, the sweetest thing in the world is to hear him admit that he treasures her.
--Love is giving someone the power to break your heart, but trusting that they won't.
--A boyfriend is someone you can go to crying in your PJs, your hair a mess, make-up running down your face, and he'd still say, "Baby, you're beautiful"!
--Once you find the right person, all of a sudden, anything is possible.
--Making sacrifices is what love is all about, just make sure you're not the only one making them.
--Friendship is just a word, but girls give it a meaning.
--Smile always ... and live the smile!
--The best thing you can give someone is a chance.
--Don't push anyone to hard, if it's meant to be, it will happen.
--They say true love hides behind every corner ... I must be walking in circles!
--Tonight I'll ask the stars above, "How will I win your love? What do I do? What do I say to turn your eyes my way?"
--For all of you who talk about me ... thanks for making me the center of your world!
--Never start frowning because you never know who's falling in love with your smile.
--When a girl loves a guy, the sweetest thing in the world is to hear him admit that he treasures her.
--Love is giving someone the power to break your heart, but trusting that they won't.
--A boyfriend is someone you can go to crying in your PJs, your hair a mess, make-up running down your face, and he'd still say, "Baby, you're beautiful"!
--Once you find the right person, all of a sudden, anything is possible.
--Making sacrifices is what love is all about, just make sure you're not the only one making them.
--Friendship is just a word, but girls give it a meaning.
So
So today I was reminded that I am so much better then what I always settle for. Maybe I was over it and never realized that I was. I have lowered my standards and its time that I raise them up again. I have done a lot of thinking during the past couple of days. Im a little hurt but at least I know the truth now and can make a decision based off that. I think that I havent been living in "reality" about the situation.
Ugh....Men!
I seriously do not understand guys at all!!! Why do they act like they want one thing just to be like surprise thats not what I want....I want this. Which is perfectly fine but I think we would've saved everyone a lot of heartache if they would've just said that in the very beginning. Why do guys play games?? Is it really that fun?? Does it get you off in some weird twisted way?? I seriously do not understand! Why am I always like your best friend or a little sister?? Maybe I don't want to be your best friend or little sister!! Always the friend never the bride. I'm not saying that I want to run to the chapel and get married..I just want more then to just be your best friend. I was talking to Tanya last night about everything and I must be doing something wrong. What that is, I have no idea. I am just confused and frustrated!! So if I seem way quiet, its because I'm trying to let you go without hurting both of us. I don't know what else to say to you..I've said all there is to say. You want the best of both worlds, but I'm sorry, thats just not going to happen. Not with this girl anyways. I'm going to stop before I say too much!!!!
Random Gibberish
its amazing how you feel like your life is going in such a way that your almost miserable but not quite...then all of a sudden everything changes for you. As a lot of my close friends know...my heart has been in pieces. I felt like i would never get over this person even though its been 2 years. Its been really hard for me to accept the fact that we are over but i have finally accepted it. It was a lot of praying and a whole lot of crying. I know that i will have to work at it everyday and i know that my feelings wont just vanish. I kept asking god why he allows me to hurt and i finally got a answer. Scars are there to remind you of the past and who you were. I was reminded yesterday of how much i have grown and how different i am since moving back to cali. Also i couldnt understand why i couldnt let stuff go...this very special person told me i hadnt learned what god was trying to teach me. Which was true....i was trying to do everything on my own and i wasnt trusting in god at all. Lets just say that yesterday my eyes opened up to a lot of things and i have peace and can accept his decision in my heart now. Im also glad that i never hooked up with anyone cause i would have drove any man to drinking...lol seriously. On a side note..i met this amazing person! He has so many qualities that i admire..ill keep you updated
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